It’s Time to Find Out What’s Going on With me.This Is Long, but I Value Your Opinions.?
Question by Wanda Rinn: It’s time to find out what’s going on with me.This is long, but I value your opinions.?
I’m 26 years old.
Thoughts about death: I’m sitting on the bus, I have paranoid thoughts like what if the bus crashes, what if there’s a bomb and how it’s going to hurt me burning in flames and hearing everyone screaming, or i’ll be laying down at night and think “what if I stop breathing…what if something plugs my airhole and i can’t breathe” and just yesterday while I was waiting for the bus this guy was asking me about the bus and I observed that he kept eyballing my purse. He asked me (had an accent) “so bus go to gas station, and comes here?” i say, “yes.” He says “Ok. so bus goes to gas station first, yeah?” i say “yes.” and he kept repeating the same thing over and over and over again. Anywho, in the bus i kept worrying that he is waiting for me to get off the bus then follow me and mug me or stab me!
I’m in a live-in domestic partner relationship of a year and a half that I don’t want to be in anymore and I can’t just leave…it’ll take time (financial reasons). Her dad, her sister and 3 teen nephews live there too. I try to stay at work as late as I can just so I won’t have to be home. They all get on my nerves sometimes. I can’t stand my significant other to want to hold me or kiss me, i dont want sex at ALL, it bothers me when she somes to me w/ her problems (because i have enough issues of my own…and i know that sounds horrible). I hate feeling that I feel obligated to make sure everything’s clean before my ‘spouse’ comes home, reporting to her when i’m going somewhere, etc….In other words, I miss the single life. But she refuses to let me go. We fight a lot and have spoken many times and she swears she will change and so do I, blah blah blah..i lost hope. I do love her…very much…in fact I’ll do anthing for her but why do I feel this way? I want to be with her, yet I despise her for the things she’s put me through. I don’t know. I get like this a LOT.
I’m depressed. My mind races a thousand miles per hour. Sometimes I’m at work and I want to burst out in tears for no reason. But I hold in so much that my throat and stomach hurt. I try to cry, but I can’t cry a lot like I want to.
I find myself daydreaming to be alone. I don’t want friends, I don’t want anybody or anything. I feel like if I lived alone, all my distress will go away. I just want to be alone, and tranquil with my dog. I’ve had these phases since a teenager.
My health: my menstrual cycle is extremely irregular. I get it like 3 times a year and I get crazy mood swings, my hormones are left and right. I used to do crystal meth, coke, ecstacy about 3 years ago and stopped. I used to drink a LOT but toned down for the past 2 years so I drink maybe 1-2 times a week. I am overweight. I’m suposed to weigh 115 but I weight 170.
I know that I should see a therapist which is my next step, but what do you make of all this? Thank you so much for reading this.
I am indenial that something is wrong with me. Is there?
Best answer:
Answer by Solicitee
Sounds like you’ve got some problems with anxiety and depression. I’d see a therapist – this is relatively easy to treat, but you’ll need to make some changes and that will be hard to do, at least at first.
If you’re not happy in your current relationship, then break up with your girlfriend. It’s better for both of you. See your regular doctor about your menstrual cycle – maybe they can put you on birth control pills to regulate it.
Good luck, you’ll get through this but you have to take the first step in seeing a doctor.
What do you think? Answer below!
Crystal Meth Facts: Facts On Meth Informative Speech
Video For College.
Video Rating: 4 / 5
Related Crystal Meth Facts Information…